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| status report: i've called it a day i'm taking break from alot of things. all i want is attention, it's all i ever wanted. no matter what it took. but i don't care anymore. i'm done impressing, pissing off, being friendly, doing anything. everything has nothing to do with me anymore. i'm trying to be everything i'm not. in so many ways. i'm gonna lay back and go away for awhile. there are 2 people that are seeming like their wanting to help me get back on my feet, and there's one person i know is always their 'though he acts like he's not on the outside. there's one thing i'm insterested in tryng for right now. i'm gonna continue on that little venture until i figure out how that will end up, cause it's something i know i need right now. everything, and everyone else though, i'm done. bye. | | |
| i'm going to use this again since no one looks at it.. probably not. i fucking hate my life right now.i have nothing going for me. school is wasting my time. and so is work. i can't do shit with all this going on. even if i had time, i don't have a life anyway. no girlfriend, and no friends. all down the drain. why do i fuck up everything? i don't even know what i do. no girl cares about me one bit. i lost who i thought were my best fucking friends. even though now i'm starting to hang out with people better than they will ever be. i don't know. i don't feel like going into detail right now. i'm just an ordinary guy.. and all i want is to be loved. is that so fucking wrong? | | |
| i coulda swore a couple days ago you were talking about how much of a bitch she is.... and i coulda swore you, throughout our relationship, talked of how you hated being with him and it was a mistake and how you didn't get along with him at all. it's cool tho. | | |
| mmmmmm... my bed smells like her..
i had fun today :).... well.... after tag day was over that is haha. it sucked. went out with gave head and kindra.
afterwards.. rita me carly and brad hung out at my house. it was cool. rita stayed for a lil over an hour after they left 'cause she had to be home because of brandy leaving soon?
other than that, gfi is.... good? are myspace is gay.
band sucks... i mean, i love it. but my section doesn't give a fuck. and i don't know what it's going to take to get them to try. the rookies are doing just as good as hardened seniors. and it's not a case where the rookies are that good. it's the other way around. | | |
| yea, i still don't think you gave a fuck. maybe you did. but sure as fuck not as much as you told me. liar.
anyway. the show is shaping to be an amazing experience. it's hard and fun at the same time. it's weird. i'm always running around. honestly i don't see how we're making formations 'cause from my view, we're just jolting around the field in different directions. it's so fun tho! and it's only the opener. i for real love this show. there's a part of the show, it's after the drum fill at the beginning of the 6/8 part and we're set up in the block, the 2 sets after, i always find a smile on my face. i don't know why. i love not being able to think for even a second while running just the opener. it's fun too considering Visions last year... it's too bad Vince and Kirby can't be hear to, maybe not instruct us, but to just see it. they would be really really proud of their drumline.
rita's coming over tonight! it sucks i don't get to see her that much, but when i do get to be with her it's amazing.... i get all shy and butterfly's and stuff when we hold hands. idk why, i can't help it. | | |
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